Sad.

This past week I have been feeling so sad.  It seems like most of my friends are leaving the church.  And these are people who wanted to stay.  Who fought for years to find a place for themselves.  and then when they couldn't find a place, they fought to make a place.  One by one they are giving up.  and it makes me sad.  Not because I worry about their eternal salvation (I don't at all--they are all amazing, impressive, kind, good people) but because my church is a better place with them. I'm sad because it doesn't seem like many Mormon's realize that.  I am sad because when they leave it makes it harder for me to stay.  Mormonism is my home, my spiritual scaffolding and my culture.  For at least the past year, I have been in a good place with the church.  God answered my prayers and told me He wanted me to be Mormon.  but maybe that time is coming to an end.  Don't worry this isn't some declaration.  Just an observation that more and more it seems like "my kind" isn't welcome